As much as I love writing these posts, sharing my journey and doing video blogs the last few years have seen me doing this less and less. It's not because I've fallen out of love with doing this.
Not at all.
If anything the transgender community as much as we have seen our rights and acceptance grow in the six short years that I've been transitioning; as London Pride and the anti transgender protests showed there's still much to be done before we get to a place of total acceptance.
Is this pie in the sky? Probably!
But I'm not giving up hope.
I found video blogging therapeutic early on in my transition. I was struggling with depression and an eating disorder, but sharing my journey gave me a way to speak to others like me, and I used it as my way to paint a positive message to the world - despite all of the demons I faced internally.
Some people would see the struggle as a reason to stop. The alternative was to go back living a lie and being something I'm not. So I kept going.
Through the daily ridicule. Through the depression. Through the eating disorder, I kept going.
As I see it if I had gone back I wouldn't be living my truth and had I chosen to go back, I don't think I'd be around now to write this blog.
Fast forward six years through depression, anxiety, surgery, relationship break ups, an engagement break up and death of loved ones, I'm still going.
Your life is going to be filled with difficult times and journeys.
There are times when I struggle to make sense of anything. But one thing for certain is that I am far happier now being me, than I ever was being the old person.
That's kind of the point, right?
Thank you to everyone who's read and shared these blogs over the last few years. I've done a VBlog too which can be found here
I will be back at some point soon to write another blog.